This pregnancy is flying by unbelievably fast. Our sweet little girl will be here before we even know it. Oh yes, I forgot to mention we found out last month we are having another girl. Elise is thrilled to be having a baby sister. I thought it might be a girl, but Jared's family doesn't make sisters--and barely makes girls. So I figured due to odds it was going to be a boy. She is going to be so spoiled by her three older siblings. They are so excited to meet her. Elise snuggles up to me with her hand on my belly waiting for little thumps. Let's hope they still like her as much once she is here and screaming in the night.
When I actually have time to think about a new baby coming, I am THRILLED but so nervous. Will I still be able to give my other THREE kids the amount of attention I want to and that they deserve? Will I be able to handle not sleeping at nights and then functioning all day without breaks? Will Jared & I fight more (like we do when we are both sleep deprived)? Will our baby girl be a good sleeper? Really all I can think about is sleep. :) Cole didn't sleep through the night for almost a year and a half and screamed A LOT and it was one of the most difficult/long-lasting things I have struggled with. I went into a strange depression just trying to function and going through the motions of life without feeling anything. I think I became numb to everything around me. I feel like I am just becoming a person again and hope that I don't check out that long again for the sake of my other kids. I just hope I can still be a good mother and be and do everything I want to do for my family. But then I look at my three precious children and I am filled with an indescribable joy that makes absolutely ANYTHING worth it to have their sweet little spirits in my home. I can't wait to add another one to our home and family.